In Like A Lion...

Now, merely a week and some odd days into my medication, I sit here to write my first blog. There has been this strong urge withholding me from writing, and even now it begins to settle in making that little ¨x¨ in the top right hand corner, very appealing. However as the British do, one must carry on.

Bi polarity is a funny thing. One moment you might be up and the next you might be down. Some days are all lows, and others are all highs. A constant figurative roller coaster of the mind, that complex tool to which all humans are equipped. The mind, the mind, the mind, how deep the roots of that four letter word run. But like the seed that grew those might oaks, so is our mind in developing who we are as human beings.

Being a Christian you do not hear much about mental health within our culture. In fact a lot of people view mental health and Christianity as two contradictory things. Almost like things are one or the other, black and white, chops and gravy, etc. However I very much disagree if you do not mind me saying.

When I first found out I was bi polar those months back I had a very hard time embracing that fact. I believed it had to be some form of sin issue, some area of life I had not been trusting the Lord with, and excuse after excuse, as to how false and fake this disorder possibly had to be. So feeling somewhat ignorant on the subject I decided to research it. What a scary thing right, to set aside your ignorance and actually research something. I´ve got chills. Sorry I am being vicious. There is no call for it really.

Anyway pressing on. I started to research this whole disorder and the more I studied, the less I could deny the reality of it. I had been lying to myself. All these years I have experienced something, something I could not explain, and finally, after all this time, an explanation had been found . It was was becoming more and more apparent that it was a legit medical condition. So whether a heart disease, cancerous disease, whatever the disease of infirmity, it had to be treated with medication.

So here I am. After this long journey I was able to receive the medication needed, and am a mere weeks away from seeing life in a whole new way. Take it from me though, when it comes to life, ignorance may very well be bliss, but, that road of bliss means that there is an awful lot you are more or less going to miss. Unintentional rhyme.

Loss of steam and momentum means, time to hit the ¨Publish Post¨ button....